changed...

i have changed...sorry...whether any of you like it or not...its too late...i had learned that everything is just shite...everything i do...everything i tried my best in doing...always go against me in the end...there is no more second chances for anyone...i gave too much second chances till the point that i am bored of it...my good friends ask me...WTF are u doing?why are you still giving this kind of people chances...no need fk such ppl liow lar!wasting ur time! yea...wtf...i dont know...just stupidity...i am always taken for granted...i just dont know why...is it my look or what...its like i am meant to be taken for granted...again,again and again...if you are looking for the hyper and happy-go-lucky cm...i am sorry...he is already gone...he is hurt...he lost too much things that was once meaningful and precious in his life...if you manage to see me smile nowadays then you are lucky...cause i dont smile that much anymore...i am back to the quiet and serious me...a reminder...i am a sensitive person...i know everything...i sense everything...just dont try anything on me...i am defensive now...sometimes,i really feel like talking to a specific person...but everytime i talk to that person,the conversations just give me a feeling that the person dont want to talk to me...and everytime i will end up with a heartbreak and sadness...the truth is i still care for that person...talking to that person is like a gift from god...but i just dont know why,it just dont work out...i just dont understand why this is happening to me...changes changes changes...i just cant count how many times that i have changed this year...one more change before a new year arrives...i am not the same anymore...never forget...never forgive...