cant fall asleep again...having minor headache now...9 more days and its the end of the semester already...i wont be able to see some people that i would want to see anymore...haih...the end is near...this semester has been filled with a lot of meanings and memories...a journey of finding myself back and climbing up back slowly...here i am...i'm proud to say i'm back...this time i mean it...i will stay this way...a lot of things happen in this semester but most of them are happy ones...i can remember it quite clearly like how i remembered the first semester...unlike the second and third semester,i cant remember anything about it...good that i cant remember unhappy times...everything comes to an end...without separation,there wont be reunion...its just a waste...i felt that i wasted a lot of time stucked in my own world and dream...after waking up,only that i realised that everything around me is just right and enough...i wish that i could know some of you guys earlier and get to know you guys better...time does not allow that...
my headache is getting worse now but i just still cant fall asleep...i'm listening to plenty of emo songs but i'm not...i must admit that sometimes i still feel empty and lonely but i'm fine with it...realised that i have been talking quite a lot this days...i mean to specific people...MJ has been away this week so dint really get to talk to her...once she is back today,went and chit chated with her straight...what to do...i love to chat but there is no one to chat with...yes...i am thinking of that person right now...i seriously dont know what i want and what i feel...what i miss...i just have no idea of it...at least i'm happy and accepting every fact that is thrown at me...maybe one day...things will be better...maybe that day wont come...i dont know...i just dont see myself stepping into a relationship or so in the near future...dont be mistaken,i aint waiting for anyone in particular...just that i do not have that feeling anymore...everytime it comes,of course it gives me happiness but there is always a price for it...the price of being sad/emo and having problems...i use to have loads of heart pains last time which i really mean LAST TIME but now i feel nothing...the last time my heart was really beating fast was with that person...after that,i never had once felt anything...its dead?i hope not...
i really need a good holiday...a trip then can let me think peacefully...a place that can let me shout my lungs out...a place that i can go and let go of my past...being lost in a big city is quite nice sometimes...not too lost lar...just a bit lost...lol...
i love you?我爱你?aku cinta padamu?ashiteru?sarang heyo?te amo? lol...the three words, i love you in different kind of languages...suddenly feel like typing them out...haha...too sien already...
chao...signing off now...time to rest...just lie down on my bed and just listen to songs...its coincident that all songs that are played automatically now are all love and emo songs...lol...cheers! =D
my headache is getting worse now but i just still cant fall asleep...i'm listening to plenty of emo songs but i'm not...i must admit that sometimes i still feel empty and lonely but i'm fine with it...realised that i have been talking quite a lot this days...i mean to specific people...MJ has been away this week so dint really get to talk to her...once she is back today,went and chit chated with her straight...what to do...i love to chat but there is no one to chat with...yes...i am thinking of that person right now...i seriously dont know what i want and what i feel...what i miss...i just have no idea of it...at least i'm happy and accepting every fact that is thrown at me...maybe one day...things will be better...maybe that day wont come...i dont know...i just dont see myself stepping into a relationship or so in the near future...dont be mistaken,i aint waiting for anyone in particular...just that i do not have that feeling anymore...everytime it comes,of course it gives me happiness but there is always a price for it...the price of being sad/emo and having problems...i use to have loads of heart pains last time which i really mean LAST TIME but now i feel nothing...the last time my heart was really beating fast was with that person...after that,i never had once felt anything...its dead?i hope not...
i really need a good holiday...a trip then can let me think peacefully...a place that can let me shout my lungs out...a place that i can go and let go of my past...being lost in a big city is quite nice sometimes...not too lost lar...just a bit lost...lol...
i love you?我爱你?aku cinta padamu?ashiteru?sarang heyo?te amo? lol...the three words, i love you in different kind of languages...suddenly feel like typing them out...haha...too sien already...
chao...signing off now...time to rest...just lie down on my bed and just listen to songs...its coincident that all songs that are played automatically now are all love and emo songs...lol...cheers! =D
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