why must they make life hard for us? haih...i dont know what to say about the dispensing test...its like they purposely make us panic...make us be kiasu...i am unhappy with myself...HOW COULD I FUCKING MISS THE FUCKING ACTIVE INGREDIENT IN MY DAMN APF...the part of that active ingredient is so short that i missed it! diu! if i have that recommended dose,i wont be so fucked up...feeling so pissed with myself...today's total mark is 30% contributed to the finals man...haih...at least i salvage some points from the theory test...only one small mistake at one part...that theory part contribute 10% i think...and 20% in the dispensing test...i think i did one question quite well in the dispensing...and so i salvaged some marks from it again...but the question that i had to prepare a product was totally fucked up...i was just too panic...lecturer sat in front of me...books are beside me...the extra stress is there...before this,they would photostat us each a copy of martindale for whatever active ingredient or drug we have...this time they dint...they just prepared a few laptops and a few books on the table and everyone has to share it...and one of the most important book is located just beside me...everyone just kept coming to my table one by one non stop...haih...some just stick to the book for so long that other people dont have a chance of using...i really dont know what to say lar...i just hope i dint make anyone wait when i use the book...i just cant stop thinking about how stupid i am to miss the active ingredient in my APF...straight after coming out from the lab...i felt so stress...i am so scared that i would fail...seriously after the theory test...i felt quite confident over things but it dint last i guess...the theory test was almost perfect for me,i only forgot to add ancillary labels...its due to my hardwork as well...i worked my ass off yesterday doing around 60plus questions...
tomorrow there is another 10% at stake....its what i am most weak in...patient counselling...i just hope i wont stone there...i really dont know how to cure the disappointment...i just dont really have the mood to study for tomorrow...just kept thinking about how stupid i am to miss it...there is nothing worse than this...the thing i am finding for is just in front of me and i missed it...the feeling just sucks man...now i have to work extra hard for this paper so that i can cover the lost marks in the final paper...haih...when i was having that confidence back then after the theory test,i really felt good...its been long since i felt like this...i hope this wont pull me down...well...actually its not only me that screwed that question up...there are alot of people who are the same but i dont want to compare myself with people...comparing with myself is the best...compare myself to perfection if not i wont improve...i hope i can put this behind of me now and continue feeling confident over things...its not totally negative...at least...the confident is there burning...but not burning brightly...i need something to boost it now...add some petrol on it will just do good...lol...
tomorrow there is another 10% at stake....its what i am most weak in...patient counselling...i just hope i wont stone there...i really dont know how to cure the disappointment...i just dont really have the mood to study for tomorrow...just kept thinking about how stupid i am to miss it...there is nothing worse than this...the thing i am finding for is just in front of me and i missed it...the feeling just sucks man...now i have to work extra hard for this paper so that i can cover the lost marks in the final paper...haih...when i was having that confidence back then after the theory test,i really felt good...its been long since i felt like this...i hope this wont pull me down...well...actually its not only me that screwed that question up...there are alot of people who are the same but i dont want to compare myself with people...comparing with myself is the best...compare myself to perfection if not i wont improve...i hope i can put this behind of me now and continue feeling confident over things...its not totally negative...at least...the confident is there burning...but not burning brightly...i need something to boost it now...add some petrol on it will just do good...lol...
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